poems from the past

When my sister in law was pregnant with my niece, and my nephew was only 2, my other niece only 8....the unthinkable happened. My brother in law passed away. That October day in 2005 their entire lives changed. My sister in law was 5 months into a pregnancy, carrying the baby of a man who was now gone. Raising children who did not understand, unable to explain anything, because she did not understand either. It may seem odd that I am sharing this story now. I think of Doug often, especially as his children grow each year without him here. Today I was trying to find a document and I came across this poem. I wrote it on the Anniversary of his Death. I wish there was a way I could take away the pain that his family feels each day. I wish I could bring back the father and the husband that left too soon. I can't do that, but I can help to keep his memory alive with a poem and a prayer. So today, this is what I am doing.

Life goes forward

until we reach today

then time has stood still

memories have stayed

four years without you

four years of laughter

four years of pain

four years to watch our children grow

the pain still remains

each passing moment

each passing day

the love

the anger

the sorrow

so many feelings

the same

so many things have happened

life seems to go on

but today will always be the day

when a big part of life was gone