Tuesday, May 24, 2011

poems from the past

When my sister in law was pregnant with my niece, and my nephew was only 2, my other niece only 8....the unthinkable happened. My brother in law passed away. That October day in 2005 their entire lives changed. My sister in law was 5 months into a pregnancy, carrying the baby of a man who was now gone. Raising children who did not understand, unable to explain anything, because she did not understand either. It may seem odd that I am sharing this story now. I think of Doug often, especially as his children grow each year without him here. Today I was trying to find a document and I came across this poem. I wrote it on the Anniversary of his Death. I wish there was a way I could take away the pain that his family feels each day. I wish I could bring back the father and the husband that left too soon. I can't do that, but I can help to keep his memory alive with a poem and a prayer. So today, this is what I am doing.

Life goes forward
until we reach today
then time has stood still
memories have stayed
four years without you
four years of laughter
four years of pain
four years to watch our children grow
the pain still remains
each passing moment
each passing day
the love
the anger
the sorrow
so many feelings
the same
so many things have happened
life seems to go on
but today will always be the day
when a big part of life was gone