Sunday, July 28, 2013

A very Merry Unbirthday....

Each year when July hits I am reminded of what should have been.  As time passes things do get easier, the sting does ease, the pain subsides...but it is still there.  July 28- 5 years ago today was my due date with Emma.  Each year I feel like I forgive myself a little more for not being strong enough to get more information, to question the doctors, to do my research. Loss sucks- no matter when - having guilt in loss sucks even more.  After 5 years I feel like I have learned more from Emma than I have any of my other babies.  Emma gave me strength - her loss molded me into the person I am today.  So, on what should of been her birthday, as in past years, I am sharing my first ever blog post.  The Emma Poems- this is a collection of poetry I wrote for Emma. Most of it was originally scribbled on scrap paper from a bench in the cemetery. Later typed out as a bit of continued therapy.  Now I can look back and see how far I have come.  Whether it be one year out or 50, this day will always be a day for Emma...

 "Now blow the candle out, my dear
And make your wish come true
A very merry unbirthday to you"

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