Happy Birthday B -Man

Super Wy....tomorrow you will be 3! You have become such a cool little person over the last year. You are no longer a baby, but a big boy. You are so smart, quick witted and snuggily too. You love your apple juice and your kiki and have watched “b-man” about 300 times. Some days I feel as if I have you figured out and then other days you leave me scratching my head as to how best to handle your “boy-ness”! As all moms do on their children's birthday I can't help but to think back to the day you were born. I was here at our house, deep in grief. It had only been weeks since we had lost Emma and I was still trying to figure out how to live my new normal. I had no idea that across town your birth mother was going to have you. She was at the hospital being prepped for a c-section. I am sure deep down she knew that when she had you she would not see you grow up. The demons within her had caused her to lose her other 3 children, but she took great care of you while you were in her belly. She kept herself healthy and made sure you were as well. As I was grieving the loss of my baby, God was helping your birth mom to make the right decisions to bring you into this world. 3 years ago tomorrow you were brought into this world a wonderful little boy. Big Brown eyes like your birth mom and a gorgeous face. I wish I could hop back in time and see you so tiny...but I wouldn't change how our lives formed together for anything. You are my baby and you always will be! Getting to be your mom is the greatest gift anyone could ask for. You are a wonderful brother (sometimes a bother as Anna says), grandson, cousin, friend and son. You have helped to heal mommy and daddy's hearts with your smile and your crazy ways. You are 100% boy and are teaching me a little more of what that entails everyday. I can't wait to watch you grow and see the person you become!