2 weeks

Here is this child.

This baby.

Welcome him into your home.

Treat him like your own- 

Except when we don't want you to 

Feed him 

Clothe him 

Give him 24 hour care

Make him feel wanted and needed

Help him form attachments 

But don't get too attached

Get to know him 

And in turn love him 

Have everyone in your life become a part of his

But remember you won't have a say

You don't get to decide anything

Let him spend 7 months bonding with your family 

Let him spend 7 months perfectly settled in a schedule

Aware of his surroundings 

Old enough to know what is going on.

Then let those in charge say he doesn't need a transition. 

This virtual stranger is a relative

Wants custody

Passed a simple home study 

He is only "1 or 2" he will be confused anyway - so no transition or visitation is necessary. 

Nothing is more scary than knowing this in compassionate thought process is in control. 

So we fight for him. 

For a sense of peace in transition.

For interaction with his new placement before being ripped from us. 

2 weeks

More time than others have been given - but not near enough. 

Just the thought of how we will let him go makes me gush in tears. 

It is preparing to grieve. 

Preparing for loss 

And praying for a miracle. 

The system is corrupt

This child is a number 

A case load

A nusence to the county

Not a person.

Lesson leaned- no matter how hard you want to save a child and love them ...

They make it near impossible.